I don’t really know what to say.  I have no words capable of properly
expressing the abject fear and disgust I am feeling today.

I cannot write.  I certainly cannot draw,  I simply don’t have it in me.

I have lot all faith in the inherent good in people, the future, the direction
of my country and the very existence of any just higher power.  I have not
felt a sense of loss like this since my father died 20 years ago nor so much
anger as when the inheretence from my father was stolen from my brother
and I through the strokes of a pen leaving us with no power to affect the
outcome.  I feel both of these together today.  

I feel like there is a blade hovering above my neck and the president elected
last night campaigned in part on the promise of pulling the lever that drops
it.  

I will create again when my brain is able to once again function in the reality
of this new terrible world I now inhabit just like I always have before.  Honestly
I’m not sure I could do without it.  

Hopefully this will be soon Tomorrow?  The next day?  I have no answers
at this time.  

Thank you for your understanding